So I'm stuck in that productivity loop where even when I am not at work, I feel like I need to be productive with all the rest of my time. It doesn't feel good and its not good for my head.
I initially wanted to title this Programming as a Hobby but the problem with that is that even when I am programming as a hobby, I feel like I need to be working towards an output to be released. Programming towards something artistic that I am proud of.
Even though on the surface this is labelled as a hobby, it has the toxic side effects of myself feeling like I need to be productive at every moment, working towards something. This doesn't go down well in me head on the days when working on something in the evening isn't working or I try to just watch telly or play a game. That downtime feels like it needs to be productive.
It brings me back to this notion of an app can be a home cooked meal. When you make a nice sandwich, its not destined to be published on a website and be rated and scaled out to hundreds of people. If I can could think about programming for a while in terms of making little sandwiches for myself, I think that would be beneficial